I like this song...

Maybe he’ll change
Maybe things will get better
Maybe it would be niceIf he wouldn’t always put you down
Maybe things will work out
But maybe they’ll never
And I think that you've given him he benefit of the doubt

You need that boy like a bowling ball dropped on your head
Which means not at all
You have too much to give, to live to waste your time on him
Maybe he’ll changeIf you could be betterB
ut maybe it’s not your fault
He’s checking out the waitress now
But someday you’ll change
One day you’re stronger
And you will have changed enough
And it’s time to get out…
You have too much to give to live to waste your time on him

Behind the Song:“Tricia and I wrote this song for each other. We have both dated guys that weren’t best for us. But when you are in the relationship, you can't see it. ‘Bowling Ball’ is our way of saying this.” - Melissa Brock (Superchick)

uh... I mean

like HI5 and BEBO and MYSPACE and FACEBOOK...they are all the same....heeee hee

they are ALL the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGHHHHHHHH!!!

oohhh I like this!!

http://laberintosdelgrillo.blogspot.com/

the other day's fave quoteS

• 
  Viva la Retorica ~ G-mo
• Nuhteeng ~ raquel

today's fave quote

I believe that the only destiny that really matters in life...is love.

~Lucia , Piel de Otono

I LUV CHAMAGOOOOOOOL!!!!!

El chileno Sebastián "Chamagol" González, con 66 goles anotados para el Atlante en los últimos siete torneos, ha fichado con el club Tigres para el torneo Clausura 2006 del futbol mexicano. MUACH!!

HEY peeps!!***

How are yah?? OMG!! I have had like the weirdest most weirdest experiences during this break....
It was a lot of fun though, I begin my classes Tuesday (17th)... at 730am (YAWN!!)
Anyway, so like HOPE has made me mad and for that reason I was going to quit this semester. Then I realized that I couldn't quit, if HOPE is not doing what it should be, I should stay and strive to make it better and to actually accomplish its purpose: Hispanic Organization to Promote Education. I'm running for VP (I asked G-mo to run for President). It was a very hard decision; I wanted to serve the Health Professions Club (HPC). It sux that both orgs. meet the same day. I guess I could just be a member of HPC and help whenever possible, at least I'd actually be doing something.

Anyway well I'm excited and looking forward to this new semester...
YOU GUYS TAKE CARE!!! AND GOD BLESS YOU!!!!
May this New Year and New Beginning bring you lots of HAPPINESS and great accomplishments!!!!!

YAY!!!!! I have a Job

It's a fairly exciting job...to direct lost people. Some may ask, how can you direct them when you yourself are lost?
I like it, except when it's dead around here like right now, there are no classes and well there's no one here.

I think I've been interrupted like three or four times this morning. I've been here since 9:AM.

Anyway, one of the guys I work with is rapping...trying to rap. jus kidding Juan!
He's really cool and funny!
OKAY BYE!!!!

Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!! and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Christmas

Why does it take so long to get things shipped? I bet it would take a lot less time and money to just fly all the way to Chicago, pay for and pick up my order and fly back!

Besides that, I love CHRISTmas!!!!!

UGH!!!

I lost my school ID again!!!
I'm so irresponsible!!! I looked for it at school, at home in my jeans, jacket and still NO ID. It's only $10 for a replacement, but I've already got it replaced twice!!

Quote of the Year

"I believe God created Evolution"

~Victor Caballero

Last years Quote of the Year

"You were born for Victory!"

from my church! YAY!!!

Thanksgiving

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!

Loser/Quitter?

If I change my major am I a loser? Does it really matter to me what other people think about me about that?
All that should matter to me is my happiness and if I'm using my knowledge or my skills to accomplish God's will with me, right?
This morning, my mom told me that if I wanted to change my major I could. I no longer have the pressure of becoming the best and fulfilling my mom's expectations of an excellent straight A daughter and becoming someone she always wanted to be.

I am not going to change anything just yet. I'm going to keep thinking about it, then do what I think is best for me. It's not late to change my major, I wouldn't be wasting any classes. But if I did decide to change my major, it would look really bad on my transcript if I changed it back to Biology.

I told my mom I would probably have to take Zoo again. She only freaked out a little bit, but I know it's something I'm going to have to do.

My second option has always been to major in Psychology. The reason why I wanted to become a Physician (besides my mom) is because I love and want to help people. Then I realized there are other ways of helping people. For instance, a school counselor, help sexually abused victims, aid drug abusers and helping children whose parents were divorced, you know, things of the like.

I talked to Atif* about it and he suggested I minor in Psychology instead of just kissing the health field goodbye. Biology is hard enough. I don't think I could take on a big minor. But like I said I'm going to keep thinking and praying about it. Maybe it's just this stupid Zoo class. Maybe once I get through it I'll be okay.
So just keep me in your prayers. Gracias!
Thanks for listening too, Babe. ;)

^^^DULCE^^^^Yay!

Dulce, I love you so much!! You are the coolest big sis ever!! Eres como mi mejor amiga y aunque estemos muy lejos de eachother, tu debes saber que you te quiero mucho y siempre te he admirado. Te deseo lo mejor de la vida porque te lo mereces!! Eres una gran persona y te adoro y cada que me acuerdo de ti me pongo triste porque no te veo, pero tambien me pongo bien, pero muy happy porque.....no se. Porque tqm y eres like lo max para mi. I LOVE YOU SIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The parents...

I love my mom so much..... I know sometimes we can't understand eachother, but we still love eachother so much. I often find myself thinking that I'll never be as good as she is. But it's okay. I'll be my own self.
I'm really thankful for my parents though. This weekend they went away to a "Matrimony" thingie to better their relationship and to get counseling. I'm so proud of them both. Specially my dad, since he's so closed up in his own world. I know it takes a lot for someone who is not used to talking about their feelings to actually do it and in front of a lot people. My favorite thing about this step though, is that they are now closer to God. YAY!! I'm so happy for them. SO HAPPY. Thank you Mami and Papi. Los quiero munnnnncho!!!

School...

UGH!!!!!!! I've just about had it. I am so tired of school, so bad that all I've been wanting to do is throw it out the window.... It's that dumb Zoo class. It's killing me over and over and over. I may have to take it over.--HELP!: If I do take again, do you guys recommend that I take it with the same prof (since I know how he works and I already have the notes) or should I find an easier prof?
Should I drop the class? (deadline is Fri) Or should I just stay and accept whatever grade I receive then take it again? How will that look in my transcript?

>I finally did something I should have done since I started going to college. I joined the Health Professions Club!! They are actually going to help me through my transfer process and all that good stuff!! They are also going to enlighten me with all their knowledge of higher education, scholarships and research programs>>WOO-HOO!....great, more stuff to worry about....

GOSH!!! I am so stressed out. God, please help me. Be my wisdom. Thank you.

Hey VY!!!

How are you? Man I miss you!
I really hope we can hang out this weekend.
LOVE YAH!! muach!

Oh Yeah....

As of the 20th of October, I am officially

19 years old. WOO-HOO!!!! Yay!!! now I'm one year closer to being able to run for president!!!

I don't feel 19. How are 19 year olds supposed to feel? A little help here would be nice. But I still feel 17. It's a good thing though. I love being goofy and stuff. Don't get me wrong, I'm mature when I have to be. Like in college and stuff. bUt like at home or with my friends I'm just a big gooball.

Okey well I still watch the Fairly Odd Parents, SpongeBob, Drake and Josh and stuff but it's cool!!! Someday I'll let go. Maybe when I have my kids I'll let go. No, cuz when I have my kids, I want to be a kid for them too, you know so they can have fun with me and so they can say that I'm the weirdest mom they have ever met. OMG!! 19 and already thinking abut kids. Well I'm not saying that I want kids now, but I'm saying that it's gonna be so cool!!!I already love them.

But anyway, I wanna say THANK YOU most importantly to God for allowing me to still be here and for loving me no matter what and to all those people who have watched me grow, my family and my friends. Thank you for sticking with me and being there for me when I needed it. I LOVE YAH!!!!!! you know who you are!!!

HApPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPpY BIRTHDAY TO ME HApPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPpY BIRTHDAY TO ME HApPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPpY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Zoology....

yay!!! that's me although you can't see me very well, and I'm dissecting Lumbricus, a dirt worm in zoo lab. It was really fun until the guy next to me flung all that goop into my hair. It was okay though, because whenever we dissected a crawfish, I flung its testes at him!!!!

Last Halloween @ OKCCC

This is one of my fave!!
Dixie I love you so much, hunny!!
Thankx for TODO!!!
TE QUIERO MUNNNCH-O!!!

Well this is how I felt yesterday when I couldn't
go outside because I had to saty inside and study.


And I was all like "But I wanna do this!" I wanted to go outside and skateboard, but I had to study for my tough-o-mungus test!!

Don'cha Just Love'em???

I LOVE'EM!!!!!!!

Memories

~good times, good times!!~
It's been over a year since we grad. from Upward Bound.
I miss everyone...not my mom though, because I see her all the time. But I miss the trips, the food, the jokes... the great times we had together, all
(apprx) 60 of us...

I learned so much in UB. Mostly, I learned to love others because of their differences.


I love you Carmela! You've always been there for me. THANX!!!

HEY!: No matter where you other 59 are, I want you to know that I wish you the best of luck and hope that you succeed in whatever it is that you do. I miss you guys!! and I love you guys!! TAKE CARE!!!!! AND LAUGH, FART, JUMP>LAUGHSMILING IS CONTAGIOUS<>

Someone said:

I can do what you can't do, you can do
what I can't do, and
together we can do great things.

How cool is that? Mother Teresa said that.

I'm in a good mood today, I've had a pretty good day, I'm about to go study for a zoo test. I'll be okay. I love God.
I love people too. No matter how inhumane they can be and are, I still love them. (but then again if humans are "inhumane" why does that word exist?)

on a nother note:
I had a good time at the fair the other day, laughing and playing around with friends and my hunny, talking to Lily, embarrasing Jermaine in front of his acompanada by telling her he won the best costume contest for HW years ago. Making fun of Wayne's face after he tried the foot massager. Running away from Ricardo's farts. Being hyper. Great weather. I really wished Victor and Vy could have been there too. love yah guys...

I love 91fm.

Take care guys!!

Happy Birthday Mah!!

I LOVE YOU CARMELA!!!

Yay Monkeys....I love Monkeys!!

Sabes que??

So like Tashika and I decided that we are going to have a talkshow and guess who's gonna be the hostess? Not Me! hahaha Because between me and Tashika, she's the loud one. It's gonna be called "Sabes que??" which means "You know what?" We're gonna talk about stuff and nuts.

Since you guys are my faves, I'll give you a preview of what's coming up:
Tashika: Hello again and welcom to another edition of "Sabes que??"

Sabes que? In reality Tashika is not Tashika. She is Tashiki baby and she loves the phrase "Que ondon raton"

Tashika: Sabes que??
Raquel: No.
Tashika: Remember those monkeys that got away in Puertorico?? Well they are using their superpowers to take over!!!
Raquel: Supahpowahs?
Tashika: Yes! Poop flinging powers!!!
Raquel: UGH!!!! Everybody DUCK!! (OMG Did I just step in....eewwww!!!)

Tashika: Sabes que??
Raquel: No.
Tashika: Raquel's not dumb although she very well acts like it and she forgot what her natural hair color is..... She thinks it's green...

Tune in next time and watch Sabes que?? and learn how to bend over and crack a smile!!!

Q: If all Monkeys love Alligators and all Alligators love Zebras, but the Zebra's mom doesn't like Cats, do all Hens eat grain?
A: Take the straw and stick up the cows sister's nostril.

ecks o ecks o

This one's for you Pollipop!

Dear Angel of mine,

Thank you so much for everything.
I'm so glad I got to meet you. Not someone like you, but you.
Siempre estare agradecida con tu amistad y con todo lo que has hecho por mi. Te quiero muchisimo.

I fall and you're always there to catch me without any condition and without any question.
You always seem to know when I'm in trouble. Por eso puedo decir con certesa que eres mi angel y cuando lo digo nunca es una equivocacion.

Tambien soy tu # 1 FAN!
Te adoro

Good luck in the future y te deseo lo mejor en todo, babe. Te deseo toda la felicidad del mundo. Yo se muy bien que te la mereces.
CUIDATE MUCHISISISISISISIMO, TE QUIERO UN CH*NGO!!!

oh, almost forgot...how could I forget the most important thing about you?
True friends are those who lead you to God.

Con Carino,
Tu #1 Fan

Mahalo!

Awwww I saw a picture of this little little itsy bitsy teensy weensy tiny cute baby and she was soooooooooo cute!!!!!!! er.....Kawai!! hello VY!

I bet you guys can tell I'm doing a lot better than my last post. Well I feel darn better.
Throughout my little breakdown, I learned that people who are depressed have no hope nor faith in God.
Hey Rick Taylor (Tyler Duncan)!! I know you're out there. I just wanted to thank you for that book you gave me like a year and a half ago. "It is better to be a fool in Christ than to be a 'wise' man who is foolishly angry about things he cannot change" -Extreme Devotion

So like Summer school's over....do I hear any YAY'S!!!!!!!! Darn right I do!!!!!! I had lots of fun in Cermics class, could've been a little better, but you know, I just smile at it.

And like my hunny is crazy.....love yah babe.

Hey Ta, I'm so sorry if I upset you...again. You know I love you.

Hello Everyone!!! I need your help. My little four month old cousin in Mx was diagnosed with two heart murmurs. She just had surgery like a week ago and had a heart attack. She's still at the hospital getting a little better each day. Florencia still needs one more heart surgery. What Florencia, her family and I need from you guys is prayer. Please pray that whatever the outcome, everything will be okay. Please pray for Florencia and her mom. Thank you so much.
I love you guys so much!!!!

Take care.......
LA (miss u Victor!)
remember to SMILE!!!!!!! Losing the power to laugh means losing the power to think.
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

Maybe I am.

You know, I could use some therapy, I have gone through horrid things while growing up. Imma tell you something that even makes me question my sanity: When I'm in my room, doing anything, whatever, nothing, and I start feeling depressed (a feeling that has now become my best friend), I hear my self saying, out loud to no one in the room that I wanna go home. That feeling goes away just as the revolting memories that are engraved in my mind do. (it is very hard for it to leave) It kinda never does, everything could be alright and I could be 'happy' but there is always something, I can always feel it in me wanting to leave, to go, to get out, creating thoughts of "disbelongment," of wanting to go home. But where is that, where is home?

In a few weeks I will leave to Philly. It was requested that I attend a hispanic leadership conefernce to represent Oklahoma. I'll be there for about a week. Hopefully enough to get myself straight. Though I highly doubt it. I still think it'll do me some good, maybe. I'll have a chance to get away, if not from myself, at least from my "loved ones."

...and this one time

HA!!! I'm here again!!!

Yeah so summer school started and guess what??? I LOVE ITTTTT

So like the other day, Aubrey took me to the movies and we watched Star Wars.....OMG!!!!!
I know a bunch of people love'em and I'm easily amused, but OMG!!! that movie, to me was the longest most boringest if that's even a word, movie. What made it suck, was that JarJar Jinks didn't say a thing!!! Ouh well.....

Anyway, so like Eric's acting a little weird. Hello? Lov yah.

Vy I missualotsssss!!!!!

Well now that you know that the chicken really came first, I guess I'll introduce you to Huevardo....

BUCKLE UP!!!!!!!!!

Osea Hellouuuu!!

OH
my
goodness!!
BREAK!!! YAY!!!!

Okay, now I can finally get some sleep after all those finals!! I had four classes, but took five finals!!
Eh...two weeks worth of sleep. Well not really, I'll be def working at home. The good thing about staying at home I guess, is that I can finally start on my cool book of pictures of friends and memories and stuff. Gi Von (hearts go here) gave it to me for my graduation last year and I just now got the time to play with it. I like doing stuff like that. Cutting stuff, pasting stuff, drawing stuff, cute stuff. I'll even remodel my room! Weeee!^^^^^ It feels so good to finally have time for myself.

Anywei, so yeah I'm having fun on my break, but to tell you the truth, I'm excited about summer school! CERAMICS!!! yay!!****

So I finally took my doggy Brownie to the vet and got her shots and stuff. She's awesome!! I love her!! She's so loving and caring and cute and pretty and loving!! That's why I named her Brownie, oh and becasue she's brown...ha. She's so crazy too. I guess that's why I get along with her so well. I don't know why she does this, I guess it's beacuase she's bored or something. She'll run around in circles in the living room.

Okei, homefries!! Have fun!!! LOVE YAH!!!!
Remember: DRIVE SAFE<>

A month and a half

WoW!!!!
I've been gone for a long time!!!
But I'm here now. What? did you think I would leave you? hahaha

Anywei, so I guess right now it's all about school, school, school!!! 3 more finals!!

I haven't finished enrolling yet. I still need 1 class to complete my summer schedule and my fall schedule. Anywei, Yah know somethin'? I really appreciate this semester. I feel like I actually did something and learned some stuff. I guess it's because I've become more involved in school activities.

But something I do know is that it's all thanx to the Big Chief up there. My Lord. My God.
I love Him.

Anywei, so I'm really looking forward to taking the summer courses. I will be taking Ceramics. HA! Finally! After three seems of very very very hardwork, I'm finally taking something I want to take!!! (well besides bio and intro to TA for humanities).
I guess the only downside is that it's from 1:30 pm to 5:00 pm!!!!!!!

Anywei, so like the other day, I had a "tacoburger" from Taco Mayo......mmmmmmhhhh!! It was kinda like a sloppy Joe, but kinda like a crunchy taco!!
Hm. That reminds me of something really funny my govt. teacher said: Yesterday was the cinco de mayo, today is the seis de ketchup and tomorrow will be the siete de mustard!!!! hehehehe!!!!

love yah guys!!!!!!

holaholaholaholahola

So I'm here with Eric, and he's all getting...well trying to get on to me for not writing on my journal. This is what I have to say: so?
Anyway so I'm all stressed out because it's pre-enrollment week and I am so confused as to what classes I need to take the following semesters. I can't go to the counselours cause they'll make me cry and they suck. But anyway, so I still have a little hope. You know, my doggy, she's so cute!!! and My plan to TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!!MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

K pasa Calabazas?!

Hey wazzup people???
Whadyah think? That I was gonna give up writing? Well, no senior!

I'm back to release this info......
Anyway, so there's this song.................I don't even know who sings it or anything or the name of it, but I sing it all the time. It goes something like this..............Hoy en mi ventana brilla el sol, y el corazon, se pone triste contemplando la ciudad, porque te vas................ It is stuck in my cabeza!! and it won't get out!

Anyway, so Tashika gets tired of me because I sing........everyday, all the time.......*****I can't help it! It's like mi salida out of reality, you know? Well yeah, I mean I can't always be running away from reality(singing is like "getting it all out," like venting), but sometimes what's really going on, doesn't matter you know? Like I know it won't affect me in any way.......But loquesea!!!

Anyway.....I AM DONE with MId Terms!!!! yayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!!!!!!!And I'm ready for some sunshine!!!! I'm ready, I'm ready READy.

OMG!!! so tonight's the BIG night! I'm gonna perform in a play at the Oklahoma Children's Home. I joined a club here @ OKC3, it's called Society of Performing Artists....and I (HEART) it!
It' so cool!! So our community service project this semster is to do something fun for the kids over at the Home. The play is called (I named it): Finding Pinky. It takes place in the woods and a bunch of the fairy tale characters: Cinderella (Princess Cindy), Little Red Riding Hood (Coach Red), Tinkerbell (Sgt. Tink>ME!), and The Hare and the Turttle, are looking for the lost pig, Pinky.
I play Sgt. Tink. She quit working for Peter Pan then she joined the Marines.....pretty cool, huh?^^^^At the beginning, it was kinda hard for me to play Sgt. Tink, I'm not bitchy (@ least I don't think so) and I don't like to spit and yell in people's faces, but then I got the hang of it, and I'm having fun with it. So I'm really excited about tonight!! It's all about those kids having fun, you know. I can't wait to see those (hopefully) smilies on their faces! :)

Spring Break.........FINALLY!!!

HAVE FUN!!!!! LOVE YAH!!

Look what I found!

All you yellow lovers:

Xanthophobia- Fear of the color yellow or the word yellow.

From the phobialist.com